Post by wchristenfaith on Sept 15, 2017 2:34:49 GMT
Me if I get to the end
(Hope you guys get the reference)
If I don't get there, I really did try my best. I know I still have a lot of game left though, and a few things that need to be taken care of if I'm going to even stand a tiny bit of a chance, I just hope I didn't hide things TOO well
I just hope I don't look like a dumbass and an idiot, I worked so hard. If I do leave, I just want to know I did something right. If I can't win a game, I can find some satisfaction in knowing that it was possible. Besides, 4th is the best I've ever done in any Survivor/BB style game, that's something to be proud of in itself. I'm proud no matter if I get 4th, 3rd, 2nd, or 1st.
I told Trevor my game (or at least a snippet of it) as he walked out of the door. I did this because he told me he sees that there are holes in my game caused by my "irrational thinking" (aka my messiness and craziness) but that I'm a decent player (pretty sure a good chunk of people see it like that). I simply wanted to fill those holes for him (GOD THAT SOUNDED BAD) because while my game is nowhere near flawless, I knew that there was purpose for the things I did. What he thinks of what I said, or if he even read it, I DONT KNOW!!! I needed that jury seed in there before it was TOO late (it's still late, but hey, better than exploding everything at finale night IF I CAN EVEN GET THERE). I have NO clue if I even worded it correctly, or if what I sent even made sense. I also don't even know if he would share it with people and how they'd react!!! Maybe the message will do absolutely nothing. Maybe he will blow it off. No matter what I say I will NOT be able to convince people I'm not crazy, because I am, but there is such thing as an organized mess, and that's what I've gotta sell.
Before I can even consider that though, I need to get to the end!!! It's a long journey. I honestly think AJ may take Ricky to the end, which is like WHY? He reeks of moral dilemma! I can sense it when I talk to him! I know he loves Ricky, but I'm worth loving too . If I think AJ won't waver I need to take action (although IDK what that action would be yet). I think I will stay at 4 unless AJ decides to wise up and make a move, but worst case scenario, I don't see Ricky taking me out. He knows I can win the comp and THINKS I would take him, it's dumb to take me out for him, so at worst I fight in a tiebreaker.
I see right through Ricky. He KNOWS he can beat ANYONE. He KNOWS it. He's trying to pin people into having no choice but to take him. However, his logic has one flaw, and that's me. He thinks AJ can beat me hands down, and maybe he can. At least with AJ I stand a semi-chance. Even if that chance is low, it's a lot better than with Ricky. Who knows maybe Dayle can get to 3 and throw a wrench in everything! I surely wouldn't mind a wrench, because wrenches hurt others more than they hurt me.
At 3, I HAVE TO FREAKING WIN THE IMMUNITY COMP!! I HAVE TO! And if I don't I have to HOPE if AJ wins he wisens up (assuming AJ makes it to 3). AJ has played a FANTASTIC game; however, if my argument can sell I MAY have a chance.
Final 4 is a toss up, but I THINK I'm good.
I think me and AJ are on par with each other, it's a toss up for who would win depending on how well I sell my argument. If my argument hits, I win. If it doesn't, he wins. Simple as that. Ricky wins over everyone solely based on reputation, and Dayle loses to everyone (unless I fucked up really bad somewhere which is possible).
Such a sticky spot I got a lot of thinking to do. Maybe I can try to plant seeds against AJ and Ricky, IDK. Walking on eggshells at this point.